I was sleeping in the fraternity house in college. I heard this cat in great pain. I looked out the window and here was this wretched black beast injured horribly in some way. He was screaming in terrible pain. There was a lot of blood pouring out of his rectum. It was more than that.

Dream Three. An airport ramp with a large airplane on it. I am pushing out a small biplane, tail first. Suddenly, I see the large plane has its wing in such a position I won't clear it. I yell, "Heads up!" Too late! My tail hits the wing of the bigger plane, but no damage is done.

I tore into his office madder than hell. He was sitting behind his desk. This time I was really going to tell him. He looked up and said, "What in hell do you want?" I just stood there and couldn't say anything. Then I turned around, but instead of walking away, I crawled away on my hands and feet with my ass up in the air.

This unbecoming simian like posture is a measure of his humiliation, but it is also something more. It is a symbol of "feminine" submission to the dominant male.

I was standing in a bull ring with a man I could not identify, someone uninitiated to bull fighting. The matador had gotten hurt. He was on the ground, and the bull was goring him. Blood was everywhere. The picadors with their capes were trying to draw the bull away from the matador.

Anxieties about homosexuality, when subjected to an adaptational analysis, can be broken down into three motivational components sexual, dependency, and power. The sexual component is the only one of these three that seeks sexual gratification as its motivational goal.

What about the "masculine" male who is homosexually attracted to his more "feminine" counterpart? Here, also, the sexual component is primary, but of the other two, the power component takes precedence over the dependency component. This person, adaptation ally, is better integrated than his partner.

Behavior, to be understandable to the observer, must be defined in terms of motivational goals. Nowhere is this more true than in the case of the homosexual conflict. This conflict, as we have seen, can be broken down into three component parts: sexual, dependency, and power.

The dependent male is engaged in a constant struggle to salvage his self esteem. He may attempt to deny his weakness by acting out its opposite, a compensatory striving power. Dependency strivings and power strivings can thus be considered opposite sides of the same coin. The power driven dependent male is over-competitive and structures relationships with other men in terms of dominance-submission.

Let us examine more closely the reality circumstances under which the dependent adult resorts to these reparative infantile fantasies. Here, certain social configurations become pertinent. Ours is a fiercely competitive culture that is intensely demanding in its pressures for superlative performance. The emphasis invariably falls on success, and there is little room for compromise without loss of face.

The dependent person aspires on the most primitive level to recapture the maternal breast. Such persons will have repeated dreams of food, all symbolic of the infantile desire to have one's every need gratified by an all powerful parent. The breast fantasy is the most direct reparative approach to the problem of dependency.